Well, if you haven’t noticed, I’ve been out of commission for the last year and a half. There are a few reasons for this (and unfortunately it’s not because I’ve recovered from my eating disorder).
Primarily, I was terrified that someone from my family would find this blog and my eating disorder secret would be revealed to the people closest to me. Because this website is linked to a family GoDaddy account (a web hosting company), my dad periodically gets emails from GoDaddy updating him on all his domains. As ED Heal is under his domain list (it’s cheaper that way), I was petrified he’d get an email saying something along the lines of, “Hi David, your domain edheal.com needs updating!” Then Dad would look up edheal.com because he didn’t recognize the domain name and then…well, my secret would be out…
Secondly, I felt hypocritical for posting eating disorder recovery articles. How hypocritical of me to post about recovery when I was so far from recovery myself. Sure, I had my good days, but I also had my really, really bad days. Shouldn’t I completely recover from my eating disorder before posting about recovery? I used to think so.
So I shut this website down. But here we are 1.5 years later and I’m back…still talking about eating disorder recovery. Today I’m more desperate than ever to find recovery and create a platform for others struggling like I’ve been struggling. I’m convinced that eating disorders are comparable to the scum between Satan’s toes. Freaking horrible.
Recovery and Honesty in 2020
Not only am I back to help the millions of people just like me who are struggling with this debilitating disease, I’m here to embrace honesty. Yup, 2020’s my year for honesty. My whole life has been all about keeping up appearances and being the perfect girl. That’s an exhausting life.
So here I am, ready to be honest with the people I love and care about. I’m also here to share my experiences with anyone who might possibly find them beneficial. If that’s you, keep your head up, beautiful. You got this.
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